enough of self-pitying! lala. life is still full of hope! ... i hope. xP

anyways. tues happens to be THE day of the week. *groans*
you know, the worst sch day of the week. there will ALWAYS be one.
n time will seem to go really sloooooooow.
sheesh.

fam is quite annoying. maybe im being prejudice aft all those comments i heard abt her.... but. i still think she's annoying. :(
her cls happens to be boring n i ALMOST, but didnt, fall asleep. gee. she was talking abt tourism n "bringing us to a higher level". which she claims "should be the MOST interesting part of the lesson." (coz she was scolding us for erm, falling asleep. hah. im not the only one. :P)
but doesnt she get the irony?
her most interesting part makes us sleepy. so...

though her hair seems to be better today! kudos for that! :DD

ack. enuf of her. night studies is gonna start soon. sighs. prelims! STRESS! :(( i think i'll just stay back 2 days a week? yarr. hopefully i wun get distracted or sth.

claire was freaking HYPER today!!! ahhh. she was like sitting on me, tickling me, elbowing me. PSYCHO xPP i bet it has to do with the little boy that hit you. lol. vt, amanda n pris. k were also her victims. hahaha. she was just a madwomen!

tml's gonna be our last day for cca. sigh. gonna hand everything over to the jnrs. hopefully we didnt choose the wrong pple hey? :) -smiles-

just complaining. dun read if u hate pple pitying themselves.




had a chat with my jnr. all the angst n disappointment swelling up.
im such a faliure. seriously.
i didnt like this person bcoz she kept shrinking from her resposibilities.
(mayb u noe who you are. n if ure reading this... well. read on.)
she seemed nice. sweet. was all smiles. ya know, the type tt looked fragile.
at one point, i thought she was the only one i could turn to.
when everyone else was so hostile. when no one was real.
i admired her. for her personality, for wad she seemed.
but when i realise all these were fake. i was disgusted.
she was no different frm the others. she did the same things.
i din noe how to react, wad to do.
i chose to hate.
whether is it the right choice, till now i still question myself.
tried holding on my own. all alone.
but everything is still in a mess!! i really wonder why.
maybe i din tried hard enough. im too slack.
i did nothing, im in such a wretched state.
n it hurts me to see ive done nothing.
sometimes, i feel no different from them. aint i the same?
im being a hyprocrite as well! im irresposible as well!
n i hate myself as well... im such a loser.
but im too tired. i feel like letting go. i dun wanna be bothered.
i dun wanna complain. n be the only worried fool.
cant i just be like them.
thinking of my naive plans, burning passion, impossible dreams when i was in sec3,
i laugh.
i dunno who's tt person.
yes, a fool i was!

i still haven edit my links. i dun think i ever will. heh.

stress over chess. (it rhymes! ^^) ahhhh. i dun like tml. :((
everyone must b like practising now? except me??
ah heck. cant be bothered! (yes. im lying thru my teeth. but let me put up a front ya?)
i guess i'll jus hv to screw tml n den get d motivation to practise. heh.

ok. im suppose to be studying, but im not. why?
coz im lazy.
rite rite. another 5min! n i'll be off. REALLY.

omg. timetable changed! it's sooooooooooo bad! i had both sciences, all d human, n amaths in one day! yeesh. n our geog teacher is now mrs farm. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. help. :(( heard so much horror stories abt her. :S
anyways. tml wun be so headaching. PE!!!!!!! YAY. :D + double chinese. haha. slacky. whee.

sometimes i think it's easier to trust a stranger den a good friend.

tt was random. lol. really.
KRIS! must be invincible k?!?!?!?! *strike an ultraman pose* ^^ hahaha. (tt was random too.)

7WEEKS TO PRELIMS! *panic* AHHH!!!
panicking too?
anxiety is contagious. wahaha. :D

oops. 10min alr. :P

just got home. whoo.

went out playing tennis w/ vt n joycelin as usual. hahahaha. vt met her coach! ^^

yupper. den went bugis to shop! AAAAAAAAAHHHHH.
almost died. dere were soooo many nice stuff!!! clothes, watches, accessories, food.
N IT'S BLARDIE CHEAP!
and wad's d worst thing? i din bring enuf money. *screams*

yep. was like thinking, most prob wun hv much stuff i wanted.
but nooooo. *regrets*
it's like some pasa malang (d night market thing) nice!
the only thing i bought is a $22 watch. joycelin n i were talked into it tt shopkeeper! haha
but it's cool. d hours, min, sec moves instead of the needle. get d drift?
:) *beams* now we hv d same watch! i took black, she took white. hurr.
am gonna go dere again! get d polo tees! so nice! :)
hopefully it'll still be dere.

den vt went of to eat PEPPER CRABS WITH HER FAMILY! *scoffs* nvm.
joycelin n i ate till we couldnt move. lol.
so happens dere was a food fair. din noe whether to rejoice or cry. argghh.
but we still succumbed to temptations. hahaha.
stupid monkey was like ,"PRATA!" "KUEH!" "ROTIBOY!"
ahhh. we ended eating so much! gee.
plus! d wonderful strawberry milk tea! :D
Addicted. haha.

a rather happy day! found a new place to shop. whee. :)

i wanna go again soon! REAL SOON!