confession. i keep ponning management lect. :x

I FEEL THIS IMMENSE GUILT TOWARDS POW.I
coz he does that "fine la. dont go lor. DONNNNTTT. how many times le? DONT GOOOO."
kind of reverse pyschology. or the mum guilt.
but but but. managementlectokaylacancatchupstill. :x
alright. no justification is gonna make me feel better. darn you, pow. ): (SORRY LAAAAA.)


anyhow!
i think pow is secretly angry with me for taking so long to put up his advert. (:
which i must insist on a sincere apology.
NEXT POST IS IT ALREADY, OKAY? you know you're want it. HAHA. :D

busy la.
coz like. got management project to do.
and.
like.
uhm.
stuff.
(life is just BLURRY after acounting 101 mid sem.)


BUT GUESS WHAT IS COMING UP.


MANDURAH BUSHWALKKKKKKKKK.
woots!
10km walk and picnic. (:
been waiting really long!!
how awesome.

but this awesomeness is drained a little by the weather forecast. rain on tues.
walao ehhh. i got no poncho siaaa.
ohwells! hopefully all goes fine. (:


BUSY STUDY BREAK. out playing. WHOO. ((:
with roommates and pple. (:

in case if you guys have forgotten. my roommates : YOYO AND JOYCELIN.
geez. all the retarded moments at home. too many to keep count. wish i could record down every single one. (:
OHOH. tell you guys one story. (:

THE (LAST) ADVENTURES OF JOHN.

i killed a roach (let's give it a name, john.). the day before my MA101 exam.
i hope john didnt curse me or something. bad karma.
but anyways.
yoyo was screaming like -no words can describe- you see.
i was expecting to see a decapitated head pls. :/

anyhow.
john drowned in a pool of sheltox. (i didnt technically killed it, sheltox did.)
yo still said. "HAHAHAHA. OMG. it would have died even if it's water."
i saved her life you know.
as we were concentrating hard on MA, we left john there. to dry as well.

but alas,
joy found john's remains the next day and she didnt know he was dead
and she- you've guessed it!

drown john in another pool of sheltox.

im sorry john, if you shld ever ask your younger generations to take revenge.
pls go to joy.
she's the room at the very end.
thank you.
(:



kayskays. needa go cook!

slightly emo post. not too big a worry. just wanted to vent it out somewhere.
it ain't as bad it sounds. i guess.

it's alll a lie. everything.
i shld have known, i shld have expected this would happen.
but i still went along anyway.

i asked for it.
i know.

but cut me some slack.
i just don't know how long i'll take to forget abt everything.
can't just keep going on like this in denial.
some days i can go through perfectly fine.
some days are just _____.

i know.
you know.
then what?

wish i could hate.
then maybe it'll feel better.
but i can't.

when will memories fade.
and feelings no longer be so acute.
when can i learn to hate these unreasonable accusations
instead of justifying it with ridiculous considerations.

when will it be abt me.
not abt you.

give me some time. slowly.

you know you'll be just fine.
it's just another ______ day.

omg. i really really really really really miss singapore now.


HOMESICKNESS.

miss the judokas awfully lot.
was watching the openhouse + farewell video.
reading on how every tues, thurs, sat and sun posts are like judo posts.
OMG. memories. ):


it's sad that good memories will only stay as memories.
life moves on with or without you.


freaking cold today.
was talking to pow and daren abt going back singapore.

2 more months. (doesnt sound that bad, i can do this.)

tahan another day! and tmr is temporary freedom. (:
BUSHWALK + CARNIVAL + WILDLIFE PARK + CITY SHOPPING + PUBBING (think so? :x).

and i gotta stop bingeing on chocs. i think i ate the house supply alr. hahaha. oops. (:

really wants to feel better.

can't continue being like this.
but somehow it's like totally not in my control.
feels heavy.
hard to breathe.
heart jolts.
literally. no kidding.


OHWELLS.

temporary. temporary.

could be also coz this week's hell week mann.
all the freaking mid semesters.
and everything's happening at the wrong time. just omgish.

jiayou, jiayou.

on the bright side!
I STARTED ON POW'S ADVERT. i know i know, i've been delaying it. but hey! worth wait alright!
dont be angry with me la, pow. GIRLS WILL QUEUE FROM BENTLEY TO NORTHBRIDGE LA.
esp with the "boxers" shot. :D

hoho. i find joy in others sufferings helping others.
(:
and i also find joy in the room two doors down from mine. :D
(witty eh? eh?)


hahaha. though most likely the advert would be up this weekend. (tests, you see.)
so stay tune! (:

strange post.

thank you for ur concern, or whatever it is.
and i wouldnt have ever figured out how you knew anything.
unfortunately, with large inaccuracy. or maybe even i dont know my own news.
but if rumours shld fly,
i guess im to blame.
for i couldn't hold myself;
writing on this blog, i never would take back anything.
(just maybe i shldnt have posted on a blog.)
and outburst to some.
(though i would like to think i had told those that i knew i could trust.)

if there was any reason why im in such a state.
it would only be my fault.
no others, but mine.

i do not wish anyone else to be implicated.

OKAYOKAY. not much of a hiatus I KNOW.
but i can't bare to part with my blog!

and joy said she missed reading it. (AWWW. HELLO JOY!!! :D)
my roommate reads abt my life. when im just next door.
wonders of technology. :/

just wiped it out for a while in case i couldnt control myself and blogged abt something i shldnt blog abt.
(ZOMG. SUSPENSE. killing you right? right? HAHA)

hahaha.

honestly, things have been a down recently.
down under. (haha. lousy pun intended!)
and have been seriously whiny to pple. like my ROOMMATES.
and maybe a person or two in singapore.
yeahhh, you know, who's counting anyways. :D

though i've promise myself to be like the better me i used to be! (:

and to those that had listen to my depressing monologues
THANK YOU. IM FINE. IM SORRY YOU HAD TO SUFFER FROM MY INABILITY TO WITHHOLD.


im feeling alright, though really i dont know long can i keep it up.
BUT! a day is a day. (:

in totally anticlimax-ness.

IM SCREWED FOR MANAGERIAL ACCOUNTING.
!&^%$#@
uhm. I WAS DARN CARELESS FOR MY BUSINESS STATISTICS TODAY. ZOMG.
-swears like pow :D




jiayous. everyone.



i just cant wait for bushwalk and sandwiches. (:

hiatus

overwhelming.